remember when I said that a few weeks ago was one of the most stressful weeks of my life? i lied. it's been THESE past two (since my last blog post) weeks. it's insane. everything hurts and it sucks, and i just don't know what to do anymore.
last week i spent the entire week following a prompting from HF to fill out the application for a scholarship i seriously legitimately don't even think i will get. i hate it. and i worked my butt off on that dang thing the entire weekend as well.
but also, more significantly, this past weekend, two kids from my school died, and i have never been hit harder. it sucks you guys. they were sophomores and deserved so much more. so so so so much more. three others were injured with two being my current classmates and one from last year. like everyone has been saying this week: we always see tragedies like this happen in the movies. but to our school? who would have known that could happen? it's hard. so so so hard, and i hate it so much. i hate the loss of two young lives. i wish i would have known them more than I did, but I didn't, and I hate myself for that. it just sucks, and i'm still having trouble wrapping my head around it. but, one positive thing that has risen out of this tragedy was the power of our community. like dang I live in a small town, but holy crap, we are amazing. everyone in this community has come together and just supported everyone else 11048239475%. I'm serious. it's insane. i have never been prouder to be a Bear. I truly know what it means to be BH Strong. It's powerful.
I want to take a moment to honor Justin and Alec. I thought of y'all yesterday morning when I saw this sunrise, blue and yellow:
Also, A and J, meet Al.
Jess says he is exactly you, A, and I'm happy and honored that I at least get to know you both through Jess and everyone else. I am so sad I didn't have the honor of truly knowing you guys personally, but I am so so so excited to meet you guys in Heaven. Keep watching over all of us Bears, and keep Heaven laughing.
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