8/25 last first day

my ootd 

(picture taken by my mommy who does not understand bad angles)

my breakfast because my mom loves me 

(okay she only loves me enough to make me the waffle but hey thats a lot)

now about my day:

it was no bueno

as always, first days consist of reading boring syllabi and scouting out who you are going to talk to for the rest of the semester in a particular class. it was not fun. what made my day worse was when i finally felt and realized the consequences of my decision to drop a two-part class  in exchange for an internship at the hospital doing what i wanna do. these consequences include not having lunch with my friends next semester and not being able to leave with them and endure traffic like we usually do, but most frightening and saddening to me is the fact that i will be having one less class with them.  this one less class is not just one less class though, dear friends. to me, it is one more thing that will separate us as we all embark on our inevitably separate journeys at the end of this year. as much as i would like to say that i am no longer upset about this particular decision of mine, i cannot. as my wise ma said i have to live with my decision, and i know that. i truly do. it's just hard for me to focus on my internship when it hasn't actually started and the only thing i have to do instead is to go home and take nap. and no no no i'm not taking my naps for granted, no siree!! i enjoy them a lot actually. not to mention i don't have to endure traffic (although it was fun to endure). now i'm just waiting for my internship to start (hopefully ill start next tuesday!!). i'm hoping and praying that i will make the most out of it and actually be able to enjoy it. i prayed hard about this decision in the first place (like always) and i  have faith that Heavenly Father will see me through it. He will give me comfort and all the things i need to accept this decision.

writing this blog post and feeling the Spirit, i am finally FINALLY getting excited for my senior year.
cheers to me and a frightening yet exciting and especially nerve-wracking decision-making year!